Standing room only last night.
Sold Out.How can these two simple words be laced with so many emotions.
Sadness: Those who waited until the last minute were told that (un)fortunately we had reached capacity. It's a bittersweet feeling to turn down business this way.
Anxiety: The 30 minutes before show time seem like 30 years. One cocoon after another hatching their butterflies. So much to double check; and triple check. Costumes, Props, Animals, Lights, Computers, Lasers, Pyrotechnics, Smoke Machines, Projectors, Sound Equipment, Microphone. Invariably, it's right at 8pm when I have to pee... and there's no bathroom backstage.
Fear: What if something goes wrong!?! The place is packed. Reputations on the line. The laws of chance don't apply here. The bigger the audience, the bigger the blunders. That's just the way things are. If the old legend every theater has a ghost is true, then a full house is akin to Halloween.
Suspense: This is serious business. There is an expectation in the air that needs to be gratified. No two shows are ever the same. Half of my brain meticulously rehearses the backup plan to every possible situation.
Excitement: My life's work is on display. I love what I do. Nothing to worry about, I've done this a million times. It's like clockwork. The video overture is about to begin, as the energy in the theater approaches overload.
Grateful: These 260 people fought their way through traffic and parking to watch us perform. I'm truly appreciative that people have put this trust is us and will give 100% of myself for this performance.
Validation: The show went without a hitch. Full standing ovation. The autographs and photographs remind me that on some level what I do is important. Word of mouth will again secure the future.
Satisfaction: The week has once again come to an end. It was the best-case scenario thanks to the dedication of our incredible cast and crew. I lock the theater door with a big smile.
Now for the encore.... My Sweet Bed. The one night each week I get to sleep for 12 hours.
A special thanks to this great audience for sharing their Saturday night with us: